tears in the vitamin aisle

37 weeks

At 37 weeks pregnant, I think it's expected that a woman can be an emotional basket case a lot of the time. This has been the case in this pregnancy more than the others. Lee and I have pretty much decided that this will be our last baby, and that thought alone is very difficult for me to grasp. I LOVE being pregnant. I LOVE having babies. (Except for the part where they have to be surgically removed from my abdomen.) I love bonding with them from the moment I get a positive pregnancy test, through the first time I feel them kick, hear their heartbeat, feel them have the hiccups (all 4 have been major hiccupers), hear their first cry, and then...at long last...get to look eye-to-eye at the little person God has created and chosen to give me. I love the fact that I can unconditionally love this person instantly...something I've never experienced with anyone else.

So being that I'm at the end of my final pregnancy, I'm trying so hard to notice and capture every moment I have left. Not that I didn't with the others, but just knowing that a lot of the experiences are "lasts" makes it more special, yet often more difficult. This leads me to the title of this entry. I was just doing some grocery shopping this morning, and as I grabbed a bottle of prenatal vitamins, it hit me...this is the last bottle I'll ever buy. May sound silly, but it brought on a wave of sadness so strong that there I was, crying in the vitamin aisle. I've been taking these since October of 2002. And knowing it's my last bottle is just another sign that I'm at the end of an HUGE chapter in my life. I experience several of these signs daily and cry over most of them. I think a lot of why I get this way is because of how difficult and painful it was for us to begin this chapter in the first place; I thought I would never get to have a baby. And now here we are, just 11 days away from having our last...

Okay I'm sorry for the Debbie Downer post. I'll try to lighten things up a bit. As emotionally draining as my day can sometimes be, I am also LOVING all the fun our family is having. The kids are so much fun and play so well together. I'm really looking forward to this summer with them. Here are a few pictures from the past few weeks.

picking the kids up from Mimi Day

sleeping kid pictures...

Notice Annalee sleeps with her eyes half-open, kinda creepy.
Addie is usually in some strange position.
Brady always has puppy near by!
Megan and I with our diaper shower hostesses
Annalee LOVES to chase butterflies...and finally caught one!
giving Camper a bath
chillin' with Dad

Finally finished!!!!!

As of about 7 minutes ago, our bathroom is DONE!! We got home from our celebratory dinner with the McCurdys, bathed the kids in it for the first time, then hung the mirror...so glad it's done after 8 long weeks! Here are some before shots in case you've forgotten...followed by the final product.

DRUM ROLL, PLEASE.............

perhaps my favorite feature
extra storage over the toilet
first bath!

Becky & Keith's wedding!

So this past Saturday I got to attend yet another Dunn wedding...and boy was it awesome! It was a perfect day, and Becky was so beautiful...just beaming all day. She was the most relaxed bride I've ever seen...all she cared about was that at the end of it all she got to marry Keith. So sweet. The girls were flower girls, and did a great job. They also cracked themselves up...lots of laughter coming down the aisle.

The girl who photographed Wally & Micah's wedding also did this one, and did an amazing job...I'll let her blog do the talking! Please click here to see the beautiful moments she captured that day.

a boy and his dog

As you saw in a previous post, Brady LOVES to hand-feed Camper. Well he has now taken it to a whole new level...

I was very surprised at how calm I was when I walked in and saw his face in the dog food bowl. I just watched, and when I saw that his intentions were not to actually EAT the food but just that he was being creative in his food gathering technique, I was okay long enough to get a few laughs & capture the video. Then I thoroughly washed his mouth and hands and haven't let him do this since.

Quick bathroom update...

All the walls and ceiling are painted, the floor is tiled, trim/baseboards are on, and we have a potty. The girls were so excited to help me paint...especially the part about being naked so as not to ruin any clothes. Lee & Alan hope to have the shower area tiled this week, and then really the only big thing left is to put in the vanity/countertop/sinks.

Baby name and our trip to Florida

I promised that when we decided on a name we'd let everyone know...so here it is: Dawson Travis. So, there you go!

About our trip...everything was perfect and amazing, except for the weather. Ironically, the majority of the reason I wanted to go to Orlando was because the average temp there this time of year is in the 70's...so when we showed up and it was freezing at night and never got above 60 until the day we left, I was pretty disappointed. In fact, on Saturday, the day we spent at Epcot, it was 40 and raining all day. I was wearing all 5 shirts I had brought and my rain jacket. Although and because the weather was miserable, we had the park to ourselves....a huge perk. And really my disappointment lasted all of 5 minutes and I was immediately so thankful that I was getting to do my favorite thing (going on a vacation with just Lee) at one of my favorite places (Disney). The first night, we drove to Tampa to see a traveling Broadway production of Wicked...my 2nd time and Lee's first. It was even better this time for me because I noticed more, and because Lee really enjoyed it!

The next day was day 1 of 2 at Disney World.

In front of Spaceship Earth...aka the Epcot ball

posing with Daisy

view of France in the World Showcase, and of the brief period we thought the clouds were breaking...no such luck; it was raining again 20 minutes later.

These character topiaries were everywhere...the details were amazing! Only at Disney!

Sunday we went to the Animal Kingdom, which is sort of like a really big zoo that also has rides and all the characters. It was also a lot of fun, and I was not at all disappointed that I didn't get to do certain things due to my delicate condition. I was happy to watch Lee do the rides. And who knows, maybe we'll get to go again someday and I can do them too. And next time we'll take the kids!

Standing in front of the 200-ft Tree of Life

After it closed at 5, we didn't want to be finished exploring...and we were getting hungry. So we went to Downtown Disney, which is not exactly a Disney park, in that it's mostly restaurants and shops and you don't have to pay to park or have a ticket to get in. We found a really cool (and delicious!) seafood restaurant that was a ship docked on a small lake...and I ate my first whole lobster....to die for! Then we headed to Ghiradelli's for dessert...my mouth waters right now as I think about that brownie sundae!

We have walls.....and snow! And a trip to Florida!

Lee and Alan have been working so hard on the bathroom...and now we have walls up and are ready to tile!! Hopefully it won't be long before we will have a 2nd toilet again!

We have another delay on the progress coming up though...and as frustrating as it is that it means our project will take even longer because of it, I'm even MORE excited to get away with Lee this weekend! We're taking an early anniversary trip to Florida! We're flying to Orlando on Friday, and when we get there we're driving straight to Tampa to see the traveling Broadway performance of Wicked...it will be my 2nd time to see it, and I can't wait to see it again and for Lee to see it. Then Saturday and Sunday we'll be back in Orlando for Disney World! I know, 2 days is not nearly long enough...I've been there. However, being 6-1/2 months pregnant, I think that's all I can handle. We're hoping to take the kids there soon, so this is also a sort of "scouting" trip...we're going to their new park called "Animal Kingdom" and also Epcot. We know they love the Magic Kingdom, and maybe we can make time for Universal Studios next time. Then we're flying home on Monday. The kids are so excited that they get to stay with cousin Joe while we're gone!!

In other news, it snowed pretty good here yesterday...and it was the GOOD snow, you know, sticky! So we got our gear on and built the biggest snowman we had the energy for (when I say we, I mean me). I know it's a little lopsided and the head is too big, but I'm pretty proud of my first snowman I've built as a mom! The kids had fun helping and playing in the snow.

Then we went inside, stripped off the wet clothes, and the girls warmed up in front of the fire.

bathroom update #1

I know it doesn't look like much has changed....but there are a few good reasons: 1. Lee has been out of town for work, eliminating several days of work. 2. There have already been a handful of setbacks, which I am learning are very common with home improvement projects. 3. Most of the work done so far has been plumbing and electrical updates, as well as some new concrete to even out the floor in some areas. You can see that we have a new bathtub, and there have been some other updates/replacements in that department. Also, some electrical outlets have been added, as well as a new light and exhaust fan over the tub/toilet area. And the most recent work done was the installation of the pocket door.

Lee smoothing out the concrete
Annalee and Addie love to watch Alan work!

demo day!

Now that we have a 4th child and 2nd boy on the way, Lee and I decided it is time to make our hall bathroom more functional for our growing family. It has always been just right for us, but now that we have both boys and girls, it is time to make a couple of improvements: add a 2nd sink, and build a pocket door to allow the toilet/shower area to be blocked off. This way, more than one person can use this bathroom at a time. Unfortunately, doing these types of renovations means tearing out a lot; and we decided to just gut the whole room. I'll admit I was very happy to say good-bye to the whole 1950's look.

Before pictures:
(Just imagine: the original look had a turquoise tub/toilet/sink, and the wall paper had bright pink & turquoise seashells)

Yesterday was demo day. I knew what to expect, what it would look like, but to see it in person was something else. I left with the kids in the morning and was gone for about 12 hours. This is what we came home to:

I really wasn't expecting to see the back side of my fireplace!

I'm pretty sure the ceiling, tub, and window are the only things that remain from the day before. So, we will be a 1-bathroom family for a little while, but I am really excited to see what the finished product will like. We've already chosen all the new materials & tile...we're going with neutral, earth tones. I'll update with progress pictures as we go.

not much to report...

Things have been fairly uneventful around here, with the exception of a nasty stomach virus that has been plaguing us for 2 weeks. I think we're all finally over it, but it's taken everything in me just to stay above water around here. Needless to say, I haven't picked up the camera in that time, but I do have a few things to share from the last couple of days, see below.

We also got to keep our nephew, Joe, last weekend, which was a lot of fun for everyone...although he probably only associates me with Lysol disinfecting spray, since I followed everyone around the whole time trying to minimize his exposure to our plague. Lee and I also got a taste of what it will be like to have 4 kids...and I'm happy to say it wasn't that different from 3, actually!

The most exciting thing we've been doing is going through the application and interview process at MCA...and we now officially have a kindergartner! It's a little surreal to me, but I can't be more thrilled...and I know Annalee will love it!

So here are the few moments I've been able to capture since my last post:

I love watching Brady read to himself, because he always sits in this chair and uses his foot as a pedestal.

Playing a game with Daddy.
Addie reading to Brady

Sonogram results

Lee and I got to find out today that the baby is a BOY! (So I guess we are now advocates for the Intelligender test, as it also told us at 12 weeks that it's a boy.) The sonogram technology is so much better, even since I was pregnant with Brady, that we were able to see and learn more about the baby and its anatomy today. To sum it up, I feel so blessed to say that the baby is perfectly healthy and is measuring just right for where we are in the pregnancy.

No we don't have a name yet, but we do have a list of 5 names we are considering. We hope to decide soon and will share it with everyone when we do.

We also got to schedule my c-section...it will be Friday, May 21st.

Needless to say, Lee and I are extremely excited to have another baby, and for Brady to have a brother so close in age (20 mo), just as the girls are so close (15 mo). God has truly been gracious to us. That's all the baby news for now. :)